So much has happend and we have been very blessed. Jeff just wrapped up football and will start basket ball in a couple weeks. We went to parent teacher conference and all his teachers had nothing but good to say about him. So we are pretty much liven the dream. :)
Tonight Peter threw me an Over the Hill birthday party and they did it over a my friend Barbs rental cabin. I looked around and realized how blessed I am to have friends in such a short time. All wonderful people.
I thank my Heavenly Father so much to bringing us to this paradise and hope we can live out our days here.
And I hope there are many more days to live....
Which leads me to not such an upbeat thing; death.
I had a nightmare last night. I dreamt that Peter was driving and there were others in the back seat, but I don't know who. We were on a curvy mountain road and we had seen a cat that ran off the side of the road, luckily to safety and we commented about how lucky the cat was to have ran off, as we then saw a couple of small animals dead on the road, and then we commented how fast it happens. You are alive and all is well one moment and the next it is over.
Peter was going around a sharp curve and his sun glasses began to slide across the dash, and as he went to grab him his went across the center line with on coming cars, he was trying to get the car back into our lane when it went out of control and the next moment we were hurling off the side of the mountian, the car had tipped on it's side. It was almost in slow motion. Peter said "Oh no!" and I was screaming but nothing came out. I could hear muffled sounds of others in the back seats and things in the car falling over because we were side ways. I thought about how everyone had there seat belts on to keep them in their seats, but it wasn't going to save our lives, since we were going to crash at the bottom of a mountain. I remember looking over at Peter and knowing we were going to die and how much I loved him. And then without any feeling of the impact it was over. No sound, no pain, only dark. It was as if I were in a room alone with no light and I knew I was dead.
I began to think about my life and children and grand children and Peter. When I thought about Peter this great sorrow swept over me, because I knew I wasn't sealed to him and I would not spend my eternity with him as my husbad and I began to cry. As I lay crying I began to waken, I thought What do I need to do to have my life in order? What do I need to do to make sure I get to spend the rest of my life with Peter? Am I ready to stand before my maker? And I knew I wasn't, that there are things I need to work on.
Of course I woke up Peter and he held me and we talked about my dream and all my feelings. All I can say is life is a process. We may think for a while that we are doing fine, but then we realize there is more work to be done to be better.
I have made some mistakes, so small and some big. I feel blessed to have a Heavenly Father that loves me and want me back.
With work ahead, I am going to step it up. I have a ways to go before I feel ready, but I will do what ever it takes, because this life in comparison to eternity is but a moment. And I love Peter so much, I can't wait to be sealed to him :)
3 comments:
Well you are still sealed to up. :p No but all joking aside what a horrid dream. And I had a really bad dream about JC just a couple of nights ago too. Those kind of dreams can leave you feeling unsettled. :( I am glad you have Peter though, and not that I would wish you a bad dream but it's cool if it jump starts positive action right?
I am super proud of Peter too for pulling off the surprise party. I didn't realize it would be at someone's cabin.!x♥x♥
Lisa, I am sorry you had a nightmare too. They see so real and leave you feeling all shattered. But you are right, it certainly was a jump start!
Yes, the cabin that Barb had offered for Jenn and Matt to rent last summer is where we had it. He was going to do it here, but she offered their place and it was perfect.
had about 20 people and the best carrot cake you have ever eaten. One of the ladies that works at Peters office made it. She is known for her great cakes, and this was no exception!
Just read this. I hate bad dreams that feel so real because we really have no control over them. I have been doing a lot of pondering over dreams that last couple of days.
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